All of me.

"BRO, YOU WANNA BUY SOME DRUGS?!"

- Some dude at Skylark Street. I laughed my fuckin' ass off the moment I heard that.

This lack of communication I have with everyone has got me thinking; everyone is out doing their own thing and I think I should be doing the same. There's no point being social when no one is available, it's a little late to be thinking about it now but at least I got it cemented that people are just busy with their own shit. I think all I'm going to be doing is work, gym, eat and sleep. I really have it easy compared to everyone else, it kinda makes me sad, I often thought "there's no way that this is all there is to it" but after doing it for a while, it really is, all I have to do now is find a way to not get bored of it all and pray to god that I don't fall in love, knowing that my income is going towards something should fend off boredom enough but I have a strange feeling that it won't. Nothing is happening on Facebook either so it's high time I get rid of that, too, social media networking first needs a social life to be any use and I don't think I'll be getting any of that anytime soon, and nor should I. 

Nataliee spoke to me today when I went to get my Zaraffa's fix, she actually initiated a conversation with me over the counter, asking where I work and what I'm up to n' shit, felt like I tackled a dragon and leveled up somewhere in life and now I can start new quests, maybe I've been jumping to conclusions all this time :L I also saw Sang when I went for a little walk to Inala but for some reason, when I saw her, I didn't stop walking, it was like I made it an effort not to stop for conversation and even though I felt like an asshole, I didn't feel bad about it, maybe this lack of social exchanges have made me accustomed to the idea that I don't need the occasional conversation with people I've known for years, that being said though, it'd sure be nice to have that again, or maybe I just really needed to pee. We'll never know. I also saw Teresa and Hannah at the gym today, I didn't speak to them either. Weird.

All of Me (Dash Berlin Rework) - John Legend

Drop the poptart.

"I don't think it's normal to be sleeping that much."

- Dante Le, waking me up for the third time.

Man, today was dope. I slept like a baby til 4pm, there were instances where I would wake up before that but only to brush my teeth, go to the toilet or check what is in the fridge but other than that, slept til I couldn't sleep anymore. There's nothing like knowing you've done your fill of work and then resting with peaceful mind. The curtains made my room seem as if it was late evening so I unknowingly snuck in a few extra hours so I think I was out for about 16 hours of the day and what a day it was.

There's nothing I can really say since I wasn't conscious for most of the day, when I was awake, it was in the company of MegaLats then Dante and Izzy. I haven't been to the gym the last 3 or so days because of my period toe, I was never one to risk hurting it further so I'd much rather stop altogether to let it heal but because Dante fed me a shit load of pain killers, the pain has been killed thus continuing my quest to be in shape in order to survive a zombie apocalypse, thank you, Dante.

Drop The Poptart - Deadmau5

Only girl.

"You eat really fucking loudly, you know that?"
- Troy Reynolds

I never noticed, guess living alone all this time made me superfluous to this fact, I mean, there really isn't a need to eat quietly when there's no one else around so having this shoved into my face was really eye-opening so when I was faced with this statement, I thought about it for ages as I smacked my lips harder. I remember being told something like this in high school, Tiffany would often tell me how disgusting and annoying I was when I ate so I had to turn around or put forth effort to eat with my mouth closed, thinking back now; that was a dumb ass thing to do, I wonder why I let those opinions get the better of me. I should've told her to fuck off or get up and eat elsewhere, I don't know why people get mad over something like that, I'm fucking eating, that's like telling me to stop breathing. How can you even pay attention to something like that when you're eating anyway? I get so immersed in my own food, I won't even realize I was being butt-raped until the meal is over, I thought everyone was the same. Fucking people, man, fuck em'.

Speaking of food; I saw something amazing today. I spent the day as Troy's (I call him "God" now since his name sounds like "Troi") off-sider and we went to refuel the truck as we do every morning before our deliveries and the dude bought a sausage roll when he went in to pay for the fuel, notice how I said "a sausage roll" and not "a sausage roll with sauce" yeah, that's right, this dude was eating a sausage roll by itself. I looked at this dude as if he took a bite out of a kit kat without breaking it apart for the entire duration of his meal and that segway-ed into an 8 hour-long argument on whether or not it is normal for people to eat sausage rolls without sauce. We had 8 deliveries which meant I had 8 chances to prove to this guy that that shit isn't normal. I forgot to ask some of the customers and to my amazement, 4 out of 6 people do not have sauce with their sausage rolls, to me, that is insane. One of the dudes I asked was a real Aussie, like, a real, real Aussie, if this dude was any more Aussie, he'd shit didgeridoos. The guy had the flag tattooed across his chest and everything, goddamnit, can't believe I lost a bet I was so sure of winning. I was so caught up in that sight that I forgot to pay attention to anything else throughout the day. I spent the entire day thinking about sausage rolls.

Only Girl (Scott Bradley & Niia Cover) - Rihanna

Adore you.

"We gotta help each other out when we can, life isn't so hard that way."
- Random carpenter, asked him to move his ute for us to finish the delivery.

Dude, some angel from Heaven came down to Poinciana Street and fixed that fuckin' pothole. You've no idea the joy I have at the moment. I'm positive I speak for all of Poinciana Street when I say that person who filled up that pothole is a god. There was no nearby construction going on at all so that can only mean that someone felt the need to get some cement and make concrete and that meant finding out the gravel/powder ratio of the road to make it stable and consistent enough for traffic, as a dude who has done construction for a good year or two, this makes me giddy to know that there's someone like that on this street. I don't think you guys understand, if today was raining caramel and chocolate, the highlight of my day would still be this filled pothole. Bless your soul, lone hero of Poinciana. You are acknowledged. 

Day was spent being Beau Ensor's off-sider, which was something I enjoyed, I enjoy being with anyone who's not a complete asshole. No matter how simple the day seems, there's always a catch, something I learnt when I started working here. There's always one or two orders that require an immense amount of patience and/or effort so walking into the warehouse, looking at your list and thinking "oh, this will be piss-easy" is always the wrong approach, that being said though, today was a good day. At least I didn't drop anything on my foot today, so I got that going for me which is nice. 

Adore You (Cedric Gervais Remix) - Miley Cyrus

Careless whisper.

"Thank you, Kevin. You are a gentleman and a scholar."
- Tony, I don't think they have the right impression of me but I guess I'll let them dream a little longer.

I threw away my fasting program a week ago and I can already tell I'm gaining weight at a ridiculous rate. It's almost like I'm trying to make up for all those meals I missed. Had maccas 4 times today and wolfed down a entire bar of chocolate, not one of those snickers bars, I mean, like an entire slab of cadbury dairy milk chocolate and I got to tell ya, today was the best day I've had in months. I can't even begin to describe my joy when I can just pick up what ever the fuck I want and just shove it in my mouth without a second thought but thanks to this revived habit, I'm back to 75 which is no good. This little phase probably won't last long, it's only a matter of weight until I feel the need to start fasting again but next time around, I'll aim higher, lets see if I can cap it at 65, now there's a struggle worth struggling.

I'm starting to think my life is just going to revolve around me and my family. I do nothing but work and work out and I kinda like it. I'm trying to rid this family of all it's problems and the fastest way to do that is to live this cycle again and again for a very, very long time and I'm okay with that, there's nothing quite like keeping busy while knowing that what you're doing is very influential to how things will turn out, things that play a huge factor in your life, for the better of course. I'm keeping a good pace (I think) and I have no intention of slowing it down, I just hope nothing else happens, good or bad, at least that way, I won't be disappointed.

Careless Whisper (1930's Jazz Cover) - George Michaels

Kei to the city.

"Oh my god, I feel so fat.... want some chocolate?"

- Dante Le, after eating a shit load of maccas.

I dropped a fucking couch on my big toe, not one of those pansy ass two seater ones, too, it was one of those fucking electrical recliner sofas that weigh like 200kg (that is no exaggeration, by the way) and now my toe looks like it's constantly got poop and period blood all over it. I swear on me mum, I don't think I've ever sat on the ground and cried inside as hard as I did today, it was like I was re-enacting that family guy episode where Peter was holding his knee for like, an entire minute. And while I'm on the subject of electrical recliners; why do they even exist? Have we really become such a lazy species that we now require buttons to lift up our feet WHILE we're sitting down? Hear me out here, they weigh half a city, needs to be next to a power point (that's one power point per electrical recliner) and take ages to extend to the maximum capacity and yet, there are still people who think "you know what our unit could use right now? a fucking electrical recliner lounge set, I'm just gonna give Harvey Norman a call and see if they can get that fat asian kid to lift something that weighs just about as much as my mum up several flights of stairs and then complain when he's done, oh how wonderful it feels to be an asshole." What ever happened to those old recliners? the ones where all you had to do was pull a trigger and it'd shoot up like a horny, hung stallion in mating season? These things cost like a minimum of $7000 too, I just, man, I don't fucking even, mate.

It's like I got frostbite or something, no, more like half frostbite since I can still see blood, Sweet Mary, Jesus, Joseph, God. They asked me to come in tomorrow, too and I don't want to tell them "Yeah, I got a severe case of Bigfootgitus and thus, I'm gonna pass on the chance of rolling in moneyz and bitches" so no one knows I have an entire village living on my foot and no one is going to know, I'll make sure of that. I am going to have a pleasant day tomorrow and acquire dat currency. Pain is temporary, bitches are forever.

But yeah, other than that little mishap, it's been a pretty good day, got to go up to Sunshine Coast for the first time in about half a decade so that was nice. The view is insane there, I'm honestly amazed why there weren't many people just looking at the waves, I could've done that for hours on end. Guess they're just used to that lifestyle, I bet most of the people who spend their time there haven't even heard of Inala before.

 Kei To The City - MOOG & Simone Stockl

Drive.

"Oh 9/11 ? Biggie Smalls did that."

- Wes, I laughed so damn hard when he said that with complete seriousness on his face.

There are people who are strictly business. Work isn't meant to be fun but people take the chance when they see it but there are also people who keep that working face on at all times and there's something there that deserves respect. I was paired up with a bloke name Brad and he is just that. He didn't crack a joke, a laugh, shit, not even a smile the entire time I was with him and just for that, he gets quite a lot of shit from people. Can you imagine being hated for doing your job? I suppose there isn't a need to be a hardass but then again, there also isn't a need to not be one either. This dude took his job seriously and being with the guy was educational, it's a shame no one else thought the same though, kinda makes me think twice about people but even at work, I can't help but form opinions of those around me. Co-workers are unique in terms of relationship, you're not quite friends but you're not quite strangers, you depend on each other yet you're not family and they're people that will be around you for a majority of the day, they bitch about each other to no end but because of that relationship, they keep a face they don't want to. Breaking it down like this is depressing, guess I'll just sleep it off and forget about the whole thing tomorrow, that's how it usually works for me anyway.

Today was a good day, wasn't as fun as the others but that's only because fun is a privilege, I shouldn't be upset just because I didn't have a little fun, sometimes you get it, sometimes you don't but the shit that happens when people don't is ri-fucking-diculous.

I found out that I'm not as massive as I thought :( turns out, it was just the lighting at mumsies' house that made me think I was bigger than I actually was so now I am quite sad :L Dat lighting doe.

Drive - MOOG & Erin Renee